Memento

This diminutive little figurine, a Statue of Liberty, stands just shorter than the diameter of a dime (1.8cm). In this photo it stands in front of a postcard of the Manhattan Bridge in New York City. Both were given to me in 2001 by Jody Kerzman, my friend and coworker at the time, after her trip to the wreckage of the World Trade Center towers on assignment from KFYR-TV.

I have a box of souvenirs, tapes, and other stuff from my job at the TV station, including the newspaper clipping of the Help Wanted ad I answered when I applied for the job I held for almost fourteen years. Of all the items in that box, this little statue (with its accompanying postcard) ranks among the most meaningful.

You can never get it back…you can only let it go

The title of this post comes from one of my favorite Grasshopper Takeover songs, and it sure is fitting for the way I’ve been feeling lately. I haven’t spent much time motorcycling or even with my cameras, unless it’s with my family. We went for our first-ever bike ride together this weekend, since everyone is now big enough to participate on their own bike! I had Monday off, so I used it as an opportunity to give my boys an awesome, fun filled day. Their love of life and enthusiastic joy is giving me a new perspective on life, and I’m lovin’ every minute of it!

Our two little fellas got to ride bike until the sun passed over the horizon, a term they’re more than happy to add to their vocabulary. I suppose that’s because they associate it with staying out late! While they got to go for a late bike ride to bookend the day, I used the opportunity to get in some camera time and capture my two favorite little subjects.

Their puppies came with on this trip, posed with the boys, and then provided me an opportunity to photograph something that’ll actually sit still while the boys finished their ride. Then we loaded everything up in the truck, went to a friend’s house, watched the stars come out, and even saw a satellite fly past overhead! Then it was home to beds and blankies, one more memorable day in the books. I’ll never let it go.

Fort-night

My boys love chasing sunsets with Daddy and their little cameras, so last night we did both. Unfortunately for the sunset goal, clouds rolled in and prevented much from happening in the sky. It didn’t seem to matter too much, however, since we got to ascend to the top of some blockhouses anyway. Note the boys’ stuffed puppies seated patiently on the sidewalk…it was their first trip to the blockhouses, I’m told.

PJ took this shot with his V-tech camera as the clouds filled the sky…

and Jonathan grabbed this one at the same time.

Then it was off to the next big fort to look at the receding Missouri River flood, marvel at the hazy skies due to overwhelming humidity, and back to the truck to dodge the mosquitoes and gnats who had discovered our presence.

Insert recycled Independence Day fireworks photo here. Gladly.

Despite my fancy new camera and the desire to wield it, I made a pledge as Independence Day weekend approached: I’d leave it at home. This was no small matter, since I’m accustomed to taking a camera with me nearly everywhere I go. The photo above is from 2009, when it won a spot in the Governor’s Photo Contest and appeared in the 2010 North Dakota Travel Guide. It was photo number 43,000 through my Canon 20D, which is now around 57,000 exposures old.

Actually, the conditions on that evening in 2009 have never been matched: the sky was a beautiful blue, not totally dark, yet the fireworks blazed on. Photographically speaking it was perfect light, something that comes along very infrequently. Still, I’d love the opportunity to shoot this gig with my new camera. There are, however, more important things at hand.

I take the job of being Daddy very seriously. My boys are now both old enough to enjoy the fireworks display, although they still hold their ears. No diaper bags, long stroller rides, or other “baby stuff” – I have two little men in my house. Those men rely on Daddy to show ’em the ropes, and I’m up to the task.

My dad’s idea of fulfilling his responsibility as a father involved working himself harder than his body could bear in order to provide for his family. He succeeded in both. As a boy I remember noticing that Dad worked. A LOT. I’m sure it was what he thought was best for us, to work hard and provide. There were times where I had some special one-on-one memories with my dad, but one still stands out most prominently in my memory: the day he took me to a railyard and got me a ride on a real train. That’s not my dad in the photo above…that’s the engineer that drove us around the yard.

I found these photos by accident yesterday, but they were a perfectly timed reminder of how special such a time like this can be. I knock myself out trying to find fun and unusual places to take my boys, even at their young ages, to give them memories such as the one I had. I’ve vowed not to be too busy with work or selfish things because I know how much having even one such memory with my Daddy meant to me. I hadn’t even realized that he took a camera with and took photos, something I never recalled him doing. What a discovery!

These precious little men aren’t just looking for Daddy to teach them about stuff like trucks, trains, or cameras… they’re counting on me to teach them about life. Rule Number One about being Daddy is making sure that family comes first. It’s a tough one, since I was single until my mid-thirties, but I work hard at it. If a guy’s got any character at all, how can he not strive to put Mommy and the kiddos before himself? Besides, I’d trade a hundred prize-winning photos for ones like the shot above. They’re watching me through their little viewfinders every single day, and as I learn what’s really important in life I intend to show them, and to lead by example.

Feather and high places

“You mean the feather, Daddy?” PJ replied when I asked if he saw the cloud. Yep, the feather. I was pleased to hear his perception of its wispy shape. I’ve been working a lot of extra hours lately with the flood response going on around the state, so the opportunity to take a few minutes and haul my boys around for a sunset viewing in the truck was a real treat. Even more so is hearing how they perceive the world around them and watching them try to capture it on their little toy cameras.

When one goes out to look at the sky, sunrise, and sunset, one often does just what we did: find a high place. At one point my four year old asked me if we could go see the place where Daddy goes on his motorcycle to pray. He heard me talk about a hill I like to frequent when I’m out riding at night where I can just stop and pray, and my boys wanted to see it. So up we went. As we were nearing the crest of the hill, he said, “Maybe we can stop up there and pray for the floods to go away.” Excellent idea. And so we did. He also prayed for all the roads that are closed, and the people whose houses are in the water. That’s my boy.

The Bible doesn’t have much good to say about high places, but in context it’s because of the way they were used: idolatry. The people of Israel used their high places to offer worship to false gods they picked up from people around them. Long before I started reading my Bible I enjoyed going to a high, remote place to pray, so maybe it’s something we’re all inclined to do. But when your prayer or praise is properly directed, it’s not a bad thing. The prophet Habakkuk wrote this, paraphrasing a portion of Psalm 18:

“The LORD God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds’ feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places.” (Habakkuk 3:19)

I’m pleased to be able to find a high place with my little boys, our cameras, and our prayers…properly directed on behalf of all who are impacted by the flooding.

Blockhouse Bikers

I took my two precious little towheads out to Fort Lincoln last night for a picnic with Daddy…after which we dug out their Strider Bikes, compliments of the fine folks at KTM Cycle Hutt, and proceeded to blaze back and forth between the blockhouses. I took them up top in order to survey the flood situation, then it was back to the action. Boy, did they fall asleep FAST when I got ’em tucked in back at home!

Strider bikes are amazing little devices, because they teach your child how to ride a bike without training wheels in a matter of minutes. They have a low center of gravity, no pedals, and they are fun to ride fast! My three and four year old were cruising around naturally in minutes after we took their bikes out of the box and put the wheels on.

Now, when it comes time for them to ride a two-wheeled pedal bike without training wheels, they’ve already trained their bodies to handle all the balance and coordination with the exception of the pedals. They only have one action to learn. Cool, huh?

Don’t take my word for it, head over to Scheels and check one out for yourself. I know others who’ve got one of these “pre-bikes” and their children love them and learned quickly. Then you can enjoy places like these with children who can get from point A to point B happily and in style!

I’m not the only one who likes cameras and windmills

My little 3 year old was quite excited about getting to hop in the truck with Daddy and to have his own camera, my very first point-n-shoot Olympus that I’ve had for quite some time now. We wandered across the landscape, took a walk together, and then went in pursuit of the sunset. I told him we could find a windmill, and he thought that was an excellent idea…so off we went.

This is one of his photos, a snapshot of a windmill on a minimum maintenance road north of Bismarck. We actually arrived a little late for the sunset…not because the sun had gone down, but because a line of clouds had moved in across the horizon, cutting our time short. Nevertheless we were still able to get some windmill photos in before going home for a story and bedtime.

Luke sings with Luke from Luke


Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn;
and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls? -Luke 12;24

This counsel from Jesus was a good starting point for Luke Graner as he performed at the Belle Mehus a while back. You may remember my photos from the event. Being a Bible lover myself, I caught on pretty quickly to the opening tune.

Luke uses a very interesting method to construct his music, using a Boomerang looping device to build his songs in layers as we watch and listen. Many times he’ll have multiple instances of his own voice accompanying him. Thus, for the first song, Luke sang with Luke from the Gospel of Luke. Fantastic.

Wanna see and here it? Dakota Media Access has posted it here (Windows Media format).

Traumatic April Fool’s Day experience

I have the sweetest, most wonderful, beautiful wife…BUT yesterday she pranked me hard. I came home from lunch to find her sitting on the couch, crying. Confused, I attempted to figure out what was wrong so I could “fix” it. I am a guy, after all. She simply sobbed, “I left something on the kitchen table for you.”

Even more confused, I made my way to the kitchen to find the above: a CUTE little photography-related onesie with a little pink stick laying on it. Huh? I looked at it, saw two lines, read the writing on it, and internally FREAKED. Putting on my best calm, reassuring husband facade, I came back to the living room to assure her that everything will be okay. We’re all going through a lot of lifestyle changes right now, including her becoming a stay-at-home mom, so really this isn’t as scary as it could be. Of course, inside my head are all the flashes of guy-type panic, but I’m not going to let her know that.

That’s when, through her genuine tears, she sobbed, “April Fool’s, honey!” And started laughing. I was so shocked, I didn’t know how to react! Internally, of course, I felt enormous relief…but I was still off-balance emotionally from trying to process the idea of a Baby Number Three.

Of course, I can appreciate a good prank as much as the next guy. I wasn’t angry (again, probably due to relief) and simply gave her a hug and assured her that even if it HAD been true, I’d still have been okay and that I love her very much.

I later found that she borrowed the stick from a friend who’s expecting. You’ve got to love a girl who will go the extra mile for a little fun. Thank God that this day only comes once a year!

Luke Graner at the Belle Project

My pal Luke Graner got a great opportunity last weekend: performing at the Belle Mehus civic auditorium as part of the Belle Project, an effort to bring local musicians to the auditorium. Naturally I took the opportunity to stop in with a couple of cameras.

If you aren’t familiar with Luke’s music, you don’t know what you’re missing. Using a Boomerang digital looping device, he redefines the term “one man band”. He’ll lay down multiple tracks of percussion, vocals, guitar, or even didgeridoo until he’s constructed an elaborate song. Sometimes he’ll peel back the layers at the end, and sometimes the song ends cold with all the Lukes in unison. I learned a lot about music simply watching this process.

One new treat was eldest son Jaxon chipping in for a couple of tracks. He seems quite comfortable on stage, even a stage such as this. As a dad myself I can only imagine how proud Luke must be that his boy can come up and partake in his passion on stage!

I don’t make many endorsements on this site. One that I will make is Luke’s music, which you simply must experience for yourself. In the meantime, you can visit him at lukegraner.com and find links to his MySpace page. Keep an eye out for his next performance, because you won’t want to miss it!